Sonnets, Soliloquies, and Silence

Screened from Fuji

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 01:50:08 GMT

Hello all....

Syuusuke's birthday is this Friday - his actual birthday, the 29th. Since this only happens once every 4 years I would love to be able to do something special for him. Would anyone be interested in a party? I've already planned on a trip to Paris so if you'd like to get him something you could give him something travel-oriented. Of course, just having you all there would be present enough. If anyone has any other ideas they can reach me here or in the dorm.

Who would have thought?

Sun, 24 Feb 2008 00:19:43 GMT

So I'm photogenic.

I still can't help but be a bit amused by it all but it seems that Shiseido likes my look and I'll be used for their next print ad locally. I met with the photographer and a couple of the executives in charge of marketing. I believe they were a bit surprised when I questioned them on the business aspect and expressed awareness and understanding of their contract. *smirks* I don't think they expect their models to know the ins and outs of business. They appear to be above board (I wouldn't even consider modeling for anyone who wasn't, of course).

Modeling is actually quite relaxing - I can see a bit of why you enjoy it, Saeki, although I do not think I am quite ready for modeling in the nude....

Apologies

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 22:05:59 GMT

My apologies to anyone who was trying to get ahold of me the past few days.

I was a bit......tied up, I guess could be a good way to describe it.

*coughs*

It was a very, very good Valentine's Day weekend.

Modeling and Valentine's plans...

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 23:50:37 GMT

So....this is all surreal. No matter what anyone else says I don't really see myself as a model. I guess that doesn't matter though. Ueshima-san says he's sent the headshots he's taken of me to various companies and I have some go-sees and am up for a major campaign with Shiseido. Who knew that hair like mine was considered marketable?

Syuusuke? Do you have any plans for Valentine's Day?

Yes, I'm doing it.

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 18:29:01 GMT

So I spoke with Ueshima-san the other day. I did my research and the agency he runs is quite reputable and has its main office in Tokyo. They are connected to several major campaigns including clothing lines and cosmetics. The print ads are very good and the photography quality is outstanding- you'd like them, Syuusuke. Ueshima-san guaranteed that the assignments wouldn't cut into my schoolwork and that they could work around my schedule - why they would do this for one person I don't understand. It's just me we are talking about here....

Bottom line is - I guess I'm a model.

And yes, Syuusuke, I told Grandmother - and I swear I heard the smirk across the phonelines.

Relief.....and not. Should I do this?

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 01:03:21 GMT

So the initial modeling project I was....chosen...for did not end up being an issue. I must admit I was quite relieved. I have a feeling that pink was inevitable ~~and the thought of wearing women's clothing.....sorry, not to my tastes. Mizuki had better not try it again.~~

It seems, however, that for some reason people keep watching me and I was approached by a man while I was sitting at a coffee shop near campus, just reading a bit and enjoying a cup of coffee. His name is Ueshima-san and he gave me a business card, stating he was an agent and that I have a very "appealing look" - whatever that means. The agency seems reputable but.....I just don't know. I've never considered myself the modeling type.

Syuusuke - the next time you leave early and I'm still in bed in your dorm could you make sure Jirou's still in his own bed? I don't mind cuddling but waking up to someone trying to shove their fingers up my nose is not particularly pleasant. It doesn't mean I don't love you, Ji-kun...but my nose still itches.

Why me?

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 21:57:24 GMT

I guess I'll be doing some modeling.

*sighs*

Hopefully this quarter will go by quickly. I'm ready for it to be over now.

Weekend plans...

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 01:00:12 GMT

You'd think that tutoring wouldn't be as busy right after the holidays but it actually gets worse. People begin to realize that the last semester's grades were not good enough and they need to make up for it this semester. So they book extra time with tutors - and I seem to be a favorite for some unknown reason. I don't mind but is has made my days quite long and I'm rather tired when I get home. I apologize for being so worn out, Syuusuke. I'll have to make it up to you. Is there anything you'd like to do this weekend?

Holiday Memories

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 02:42:18 GMT

Incredible. It was absolutely incredible. I never imagined I would be welcomed so warmly by Syuusuke's family. I guess I shouldn't have been so surprised. After all, it's Syuusuke and he is wonderful. It makes sense that his family would be too.

And yes, I can now boil water for tea without the fire alarm going off. This is just how incredible Fuji-san is. She is such a lovely woman and Syuusuke's eyes are just like hers, a lovely deep blue that seems almost endless. She thinks I need to eat more, of course but she is an incredible cook so I didn't mind feeling stuffed all the time. Sen, I think you must be right in saying that I make a good pillow. The Fuji family ferret seems to think so as well. I just felt so comfortable there, like I belonged the moment I set foot in their home. I was so worried that I would be an outsider but that couldn't have been further from the truth. It's like a home away from home.

Thank you so much, Syuusuke - for sharing your family and yourself with me. I love you.

Seasons Greetings

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 03:00:40 GMT

My belated greetings and Happy New Year to all my friends and loved ones. You should be receiving your gifts soon if you have not already. I apologize for my tardiness this year. I've been a bit.....preoccupied.

It seems that a Christmas miracle has occurred - thanks to Syuusuke's mother I can now boil water without burning the house down. If I hadn 't seen it happen myself I wouldn't have believed it. Another miracle is that Syuusuke's mother and sister seem rather fond of me, cooking deficits and all. Of course his mother thinks I don't eat enough - but that seems to be a constant with older women and me.

Grandmother adores Syuusuke and has said she will take me over her knee and spank some sense into me if I ever let Syuusuke go. I told her not to worry - I won't ever let that happen. He already has my heart.

(OOC: Will get around to posting Yuushi's gifts to everyone this week. I'm suffering from a lapse in creativity right now)

Take a few deep breaths...

Mon, 24 Dec 2007 04:34:47 GMT

Alright....I will try to put forth my best persona, try not to be completely tongue-tied and awkward and feel like I'm 12 again.

I'm going to Syuusuke's for the holidays. This means meeting his mother and sister for the first time. I never realized I could be so nervous. I can stand up in front of the Board of Directors, I can give a speech in front of class, I can read my poetry in front of strangers at an open mic night........

I'm suave, cool, collected under stressful situations......then why am I so worried about meeting my boyfriend's family? I want to impress them, make them feel comfortable with me dating their son and brother.

What if they think I'm just some stuck-up rich kid? What if they tell Syuusuke he's making a mistake? I just hope they can see how much I love him.

Grandpa is getting too old for this...

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 23:23:51 GMT

Jirou - please don 't do that again. Please. Promise me you won't.

Syuusuke - please do that again. Multiple times. Hell, I don't even care if you take pictures like I know you want to...

Gakuto - please call me.

Ryou (of the twin variety, not of the Shishido kind) - Merry Xmas. I hope you enjoy your gift. I don't mean to intrude but I think both you and your boyfriend need it. I wanted my gift to be more personal but getting dragged back to Tokyo most weekends hasn't allowed me to do that. Forgive me.(Yuushi has sent Ryou a gift certificate to a local onsen/bathhouse).

Birthday Wishes and Amusing Dreams.

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 03:00:48 GMT

Happy Birthday Wakashi and Niou (albeit late, I'm afraid)! Your gifts should be arriving from Tokyo in the next few days. I apologize for being so behind in things. The events going on with the company have left me a bit more scatterbrained than usual. I really am the absent-minded Tensai, aren't I?

And Seiichi?

*smirks*

Magical Handjob Fairy?

I am a terrible roommate....

Sat, 01 Dec 2007 00:58:35 GMT

Sen, I'm so sorry for forgetting your birthday.....in the midst of all of the family difficulties it completely slipped my mind.

I know I may regret saying this -

But I owe you, blankie.

My Apologies

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 21:47:25 GMT

I missed it all, didn't I? As much as I had not been looking forward to dressing in feminine attire ~~and there was no way in the world I was going to win such a contest~~ it was not my intention to be gone for such a long time. Father's.....request.....could not be ignored, not with Grandmother insisting I be present. When she makes such a statement made me realize how important the situation was...

He tried to push me out. Disinherit me. Take away everything. That pompous, arrogant, self-serving bastard. Talked about me not "living up to my potential as heir." He had no concrete examples, just his right as the head of Oshitari Enterprises and the thought that if he said "jump" everyone else woudl say "how high and how long."

Fortunately my father isn't he most observant sort if it isn't directly about him. He is certainly not the most popular in the company right now - especially when Grandmother isn't pleased with him. And, surprisingly enough, my sister backed me up as well.....I'm still trying to get over that shock.

So, to put it briefly - I'm the new CEO of Oshitari Enterprises and Father is out. It seems that his attitude towards me was the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back.

I don't know what this means for my future but I want to finish school and Grandmother agrees. We will have to see where the chips fall ~~and I'm scared shitless.~~

On Meme-Strike...and other things.

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 03:14:07 GMT

I have officially decided to protest memes. Don't ask me why....perhaps it is to distract me from the ~~abomination~~ dress I am going to be wearing for this pageant thing. I took your advice, Gaku, and I am going with the deep red cheongsam. As I will be standing behind all the pretty I think it will work well.

My birthday was.....incredible. That word doesn't seem to say enough but it is the only thing I can think of right now. Thank you, Syuusuke. I love you.

My sister called me out of the blue the other night - and I had the pleasure of telling her you weren't interested, Shishido. You can thank me later.

Pageant musings

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 16:27:33 GMT

Some people seem to be quite enthusiastic about this upcoming Pageant ~~thing~~ ~~ridiculousness~~ ~~horror~~ event. *looks pointedly at a certain former Rikkai buchou* While I do not share such enthusiasm I did commit to participating ~~I must have left my brain somewhere. Has anyone seen it?~~

While I will not be getting extensions ~~my hair is getting surprisingly long already - long enough that I can easily pull it back. Syuusuke says he likes it like this and Sen can't stop petting me. I'm not a cat, blankie.~~ I believe I did tell Gakuto he could wax my legs ~~yet again proof that my brain has taken a leave of absence. I'm beginning to miss it.~~ and that he and Syuusuke could pick out what I was going to wear. I implore you two - nothing too short, please? I am not the mini-skirt type. I also have no idea how to do makeup. Face it - I am definitely not prepared to bask in femininity. However, since I committed to doing this you two might as well go all the way. And if I am doing this then you as sure as hell are, Saeki-san. We may not have "the pretty" like a number of our competitors do, but at least we can commiserate together.

Birthday wishes

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 14:48:14 GMT

Happy Birthday, Keigo. It seems that October is quite the celebratory month. I know you and I agreed not to buy each other anything for our birthdays back in high school - but is there anything you'd like? I've got a map of a place Syuusuke and I've found. Beautiful sunsets and quite isolated. Perhaps you'd like to take Wakashi..

Thank you for the early birthday present, Saeki. Syuusuke's portrait is lovely and it almost does him justice. Also, Happy Birthday to you in return :). You'll find your present arriving soon. Syuu got you brushes - I figured you could use some paint to go with them. I have been told that these are the best oil paints around.

Happy belated Birthday, Bane-san.

I have a bit of a hangover this morning. I don't remember drinking anything last night though....it's quite odd. Did we do anything last night, Syuusuke?

Interesting Meme

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 00:26:31 GMT

8 Firsts...
First Best Friend: Gakuto
First Kiss: Gakuto
First Screen Name: dontgiveadamn
First Pet: I wasn't allowed to have pets when I was younger.
First Piercing: none.
First Crush: Gakuto (can you sense a pattern here?)
First Music: Classical.
First Car: I do have an Aston-Martin but it is really more of an investment than anything else.

7 Lasts...
Last Cigarette: When I was in Paris. There have been times when I wanted to start again...
Last alchoholic beverage: The beverages I had at the Truth or Dare a while ago - the night I danced with Sen.
Last Car Ride: well, does the bus trip with Sen's team count?
Last Kiss: About 10 minutes ago.
Last Movie Seen: The *ahem* cultural delights from Manly Movie Night
Last Phone Call: I talked to Syuusuke just before he came over.
Last CD Played: Duke Ellington

6 Have You Evers.... (but there's only FOUR!)
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: Yes - Gakuto.
Have You Ever Broken the Law: I plead the 5th.
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: Yes. Several times. Gakuto is a bad influence on me. *chuckles*
Have You Ever Been on TV: Yes. I remember being part of the "ideal" family when my father was promoting his company. I have also been on TV playing tennis.

5 Things....
5 Things You're Wearing: button-down shirt, khakis, boxers, my glasses...and Syuusuke draped over my neck, nibbling on my ear
5 Things You've Done Today: went to class, tutored, avoided a certain tutoring student of mine, ate dinner with my boyfriend, made out with my boyfriend (which will certainly lead to more interesting things that I'm not going to discuss here - sorry, Sen)
5 Things You Can't Live Without: Syuusuke, Gakuto, my friends (who are my real family), a good book on a rainy night, jazz music
5 Places You've Been: Paris, Australia, London, Beijing, Los Angeles

4 Favorite Things In NO Order
1. Syuusuke
2. Looking at pictures of my "blankie" with blonde hair - and teaching Sen's girls.
3. An occasional night of clubbing
4. Writing

3 People You Can Tell *Almost* Anything To
1. Syuusuke
2. Gakuto
3. Shishido
(and 4. Blankie - when he isn't tormenting me about my phone sex voice or how I "mewl")

2 Choices...
1. Black or White: Black
2. Hot or Cold: Cold - because you can then snuggle up with those you love.

1 Thing you want to do before you die: Make those I love happy.

Happy Birthday, Shishido and Bane.

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 22:37:03 GMT

I hope that both birthdays were quite successful and that much fun was had by all. Now would either of you tell my roommate that I do NOT have a phone sex voice. Why people seem to think that I don't know.

Ryou, I hope you enjoy your birthday present. I hear the Great Barrier Reef is fascinating to explore, my friend. Take Choutarou with you. I will get you to enjoy travelling yet.

OOC: Yuushi bought Shishido two plane tickets and a week's stay in Australia.

Tutorial conundrum and random musings

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 17:11:15 GMT

I must say I was quite pleased that Sen's team did so well this past weekend. I know that coach and I'm not surprised he underestimated your team, Sen - or that he thought I was the coach. The man is a friend of my father's and an utter waste of space, in my opinion. The man has always been unsufferably smug and cannot coach his way out of a paper bag.

It seems that I've promised Sen's girls they can do my hair again. I don't recollect that promise but Inori-chan insists that I did so I believe I'm stuck.

I also believe I have an admirer amongst those I tutor. She's a very pleasant underclassman and quite intelligent but it seems her papers just don't appear to be improving, necessitating more tutorial sessions with me. This girl isn't stupid ~~like some of those I tutor - how they got into University I have no idea~~ and she seems to understand my explanations but her grades are not improving...

*sighs*

Meme

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 15:07:45 GMT

- Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
- Bold the ones that best apply to you.
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.

OCTOBER:
~~Loves to chat~~. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and ~~physical~~ beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. ~~Gets angry often~~. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. ~~Spendthrift.~~ Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Birthdays wishes for my best friend

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 14:51:45 GMT

Redheaded tumbler
We met and it seemed like Fate
Was playing tricks, hmm?

I know you thought I
was a goofy tensai dork
But you still saw me.

We matched in tennis
But also in something more.
Friendship sees the heart.

Sometimes it seems like
Karma is playing games here
but your heart knows best.

Light a candle, love.
Celebrate the amazing
person that you are.

Know that you are loved.
My world would be much smaller
Without you in it.

I love you, Gaku - Happy Birthday.

Haiku.

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 23:01:59 GMT

A voice cries out low
Tears dripping from little words
The pain makes me hurt.

I want to help now
But how can I make things right
When I may be wrong?

Perhaps I am part
of what makes him hurt so much
Do I make him cry?

I curl around him
His tears soak my shirt wetly
As I hold him close.

I whisper soft words
But do they help or harm him?
I wish I just knew.

To Tokyo we go....

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 01:54:18 GMT

Alright, we are headed off to Tokyo....

And I have two lovely examples of femininity in my lap helping me type out this entry.

Inori-chan says that I am supposed to write that I am cute and that Sengoku-sensei is cute and she would like to know when we are going for ice cream.

Haruhi-chan says that I am supposed to write that my voice sounds warm and funny and like a cat (shut up Sen) and she would like to know if she will get to be as tall as I am.

They have both decided they are going to organize my wedding to Syuusuke (since I told them I was already spoken for) and that there <i>has</i> to be at least 4 flowergirls and that they know 2 who would be perfect for the position. I volunteered Sen for another of the spots.

Help me.